Dealing With Accusations & Confidence in Ministry: Part 1

Fellow Young Minister,

I spoke to Ron this past weekend. The moment I heard his voice I knew something was disturbing him. He kept on heavily sighing till he cracked, “Man, I don’t know if ministry is for me.” I could feel him covering his own face on the other side of the phone. He proceeded, “I want to please God, and I’m giving it my all, but I feel like people think I’m drawing attention to myself”. He paused, “Some bozo said that I think I’m all that.” Ron wept.

I’m sure there’s not a single honest person in ministry that likes to be accused. Yet, I believe it is one of the most acute ways that our character is challenged. Ron was facing something that I believe we will all face in becoming who God wants us to become: accusation.

Accusations can really cut to the heart because they often seem to slice right into our vulnerabilities. We can say something that was misinterpreted, misunderstood, or miscommunicated – doing it with focus on God’s kingdom, and encounter something called envy. The Bible says “where envying and strife is, there is confusion and EVERY evil work” (James 3:16). Using Strong’s G2205 and G2052 causes the verse to read this way, that “where [rivalry] and [factions are], there is [disturbance and instability] and every evil work”. That is a frightening verse that God has had to remind me of – not SOME evil work – EVERY evil work. Certainly, evil and opposition come against those that give up everything to become who God wants them to become. It’s a spiritual necessity that is supported by the Scriptures over and over again. And I want to share with you something that I discovered about Nehemiah, because though the Scriptures say we effectively overcome evil by doing good and God DELIVERS from evil; it’s not a humanly simple thing (Romans 12:21, Matthew 6:9-13).

Nehemiah was a cupbearer made governor, who got a burden for the people of God and the mission of God. He determined to rebuild Jerusalem’s torn wall, knowing it represented legacy and security for the city of Jerusalem. He set out to do this after being able to enlist builders from the nation, only after enduring the challenges of bringing people together and other socio-economic battles. At this point, the accusations begin. Four times, Nehemiah was pressed to stop his endeavors. While the fifth time, a letter came to him. It stated:

“It is reported among the nations, and Geshem says that you and the Jews plan to rebel; therefore, according to these rumors, you are rebuilding the wall, that you may be their king. 7 And you have also appointed prophets to proclaim concerning you at Jerusalem, saying, ‘There is a king in Judah!’ Now these matters will be reported to the king. So come, therefore, and let us consult together [among the villages in the plain of Ono].”

Nehemiah was accused of trying to make a name for himself, because he had given himself to God’s mission and God’s people. They even said he was appointing a prophetic ministry unto himself to get self-approval.

Nehemiah’s response? He plainly says that these things aren’t so, but invented in the heart of the enemy in order to make God’s people AFRAID and DISTRACTED (Nehemiah 6:8-9). Many times, in pursuit of God and His kingdom, the adversary will try to distract us with the fact that we may be making others feel uncomfortable because of our pursuit in God. The adversary knows we love people and have a burden for God’s kingdom; so he tries to use our passionate sincerity against us in order to halt our hunger. We are reminded that Peter possibly faced the same thing when he got out of the boat in Matthew 14. Jesus NEVER singles Peter out to be the only one to step out of the boat, yet only Peter responds.

Why does God allow this? Because for different areas of His kingdom, God establishes precedent through those who are wired for leadership. So, how do we know if we are wired for leadership?

Well. Do we feel the pull to establish a precedent?

It is through this PULL to establish a precedent that we will face opposition. Two forces that oppose those hungry to establish a precedent are accusation and envy. Accusation is the voice of envy and if we do not have a revelation of our IDENTITY and INTEGRITY in Christ, we will look at ourselves in the mirror of torment, over whether or not we fit the description that we are being accused with. Accusations come from the adversary, correction comes from the Lord and His appointed, anointed leadership. It is critical to understand this. We must respond like Nehemiah, “THESE THINGS ARE NOT SO…” (Nehemiah 6:8-9).

The thing is, my beloved fellow young minister, is that we will become WORN OUT by the accuser of the brethren IF WE DO NOT SPEAK AGAINST this voice of envy called accusation (Revelation 12:10). Our primary enemy is not people, it is the spirit that acts behind them. God allows this to happen through people even close to us because He is shaping our character through it. But we must allow God to use us in return to shape the spiritual realm – this is done by WHAT WE SPEAK.

This is one of the principles of true prophecy and false prophecy – BOTH considered prophecy; yet, one God initiates, the other the enemy initiates. Verse 11 shows us that Nehemiah considered this accusation a PROPHECY spoken against him. But in order to nullify the false prophecy, Nehemiah had to SPEAK a TRUE prophecy about his identity in the Lord. So we must do the same.

REMEMBER. This is done almost entirely, if not completely, in a prayer room, because our primary adversary is a spirit, not a person. Through this, we must endure hardship like a good soldier of the Lord.

I have more to share with you next week, because it is devices like these that paralyze prophetic ministries from coming into fruition.

I believe in you. Remember Ron in your prayers. Let him know how great he is, too.

You Mean, Me? Yes, You.

Fellow Young Minister,

I am writing to you because I want to let you know I believe in you as a Kingdom partner in the Lord. I was very confused at times wondering if I was “called” or not. I mean I KNEW I was called, but I didn’t know WHEN I was called – rather, I didn’t know when I was going to step into it. We hear “calling” a lot, don’t we? We’ve been in some powerful services together and separately, where we so strongly FELT that mission from God, to do SOMETHING. Then time after time, saw our friends or peers doing SOMETHING significant in the Lord, and we were in awe. You know, there’s only so many microphones to speak from during a service. I used to get so frustrated in the beginning because I didn’t understand the concept of roles in the Kingdom.

Roles. Not the Texas Roadhouse rolls, but the roles where I do something that is in alignment with God’s mission, and you do something that is in alignment with God’s mission. But, what I am doing doesn’t overturn or obstruct what you’re doing – and vice versa. It’s God’s mission. So when I hear people are receiving the Holy Ghost when our buddies preach, victory is ours too! I’m so thankful! I have been so jealous of wanting to see God glorified in such a manner that I started praying for them because I want to be involved with what’s happening. They wouldn’t mind my prayers showing up, anyway. That’s why they’re our friends. 

And that means you, too. I haven’t “preached” a Sunday service in awhile. In fact, I currently cannot remember the last time I held a microphone. What’s the deal with the microphone anyway? Jesus never used one and “pulpit” only shows up once in the Bible. Not to mention, it is very likely I have become more edified by my Pastor’s intimate leadership, daily prayers, and personal investments with me, than the allotted time of preaching from the pulpit in our church building. Don’t you love our pastors? They’re God’s chosen leaders for us.

You inspire me. You’re faithful unto the Lord and rock solid. That’s much of what we are going to be called anyway, when we get to the other side: “good and faithful servant”. We don’t always think so of ourselves, I know, but He does. It’s probably because we define the “successful” ones as “great and powerful”. The ones we love! I’m not saying we should change that up, really. But we can’t forget the grandest of our Lord’s compliments will be that: “good and faithful”. If you won’t remind yourself of your integrity, I’ll remind you of yours.

You showed up to the youth functions when it didn’t “apply” to you. You know what I mean by that statement. You greeted that young person when it was their first visit to the church service. You took a few moments before the service and reconsidered why you were even there. That tells me you sought to be purposeful in your attendance, whether or not your flesh was screaming at the top of its lungs the whole service. You liked the posts where our peers saw demonstrations of the Spirit and of power, and God used them. You’re about the Kingdom. Jesus told us that that was the first thing we ought to seek. I love your passion. You put on music that helps you focus on God and you’re studying to know God, not to preach. Furthermore, I saw you look at that person when we went out to eat and contemplate how you were going to pray for them or invite them to service. I love you for who you are in God and who God is in you. That’s the kind of heart I pray for, at least. So I’ll speak it over myself, too. You are a minister of integrity. I heard this statement recently, “in worship, we need less industry and more priesthood.” That’s who you are. You’re a royal priest, and a mighty one in my estimation. I discovered biblical might is capacity of strength, while strength is the effort and execution of it. If you don’t believe me, read Strong’s H3581 and compare it with Strong’s H202.

You are so capable. I know it burns inside of you. You can pray prayers that no one else can pray. My my my. I need you and your prayers. Our friends need you and your prayers. The Kingdom needs you and your prayers. You can touch God like nobody else can.

Thanks for taking the time to read my letter. I have one more thing to share. You know I can be long-winded. I found out that Paul asked for prayer from every single church except one. And the problems that local church faced were about doing spiritual things through the flesh and believing in another Jesus (Galatia). I’m so glad to call you my friend, because you’re not looking for excuses to do either. I need that in my life. Golly, we all do. I’ve had some carnal moments and you helped me out. I hope to catch up some time. I had to write you this letter because your words burned in me, from the last time we spoke, like the words of Jesus burned in the hearts of those men on the road to Emmaus. Yeah, just like Jesus that day, we can go unrecognized, too. Yet, those men couldn’t escape the impact of Jesus, and neither can we escape yours. I’m thankful the Lord is using you mightily.

I hope to hang out soon.